“OMG dude your eyebrows match now…same weird arch and all”
I wish I could hate you…
I wish I could snap out from under this spell you seem to have cast on me.
I don’t want to be this way anymore.
Why can’t you release me from this?
(Source: i-feel-myself-fall)
“It’s one of those things people say: you can’t move on until you’ve let go of the past. Letting go is the easy part. It’s the moving on that’s painful. So sometimes we fight it, trying to keep things the same. Things can’t stay the same though. At some point you just have to let go, move on. Because no matter how painful it is, it’s the only way we grow.”
—Meredith Grey
I dont want to be in love with you anymore, this hurts too much…the constant pain inside me…im done, i want to be done…i cant see as i type cause my eyes swim with tears, my hands shake, my whole body shakes, and i skipped school again, i swore to myself i wouldnt skip school this quarter just cause and today i did, i lied to mom saying it was easter so we were off, but i just didnt have any energy to get myself out of my bed. i thought i’d do reading and do my work but i didnt do anything, just did nothing all day. made food and overate cause suddenly eating made me feel better, then had an overdose of nutella (i can feel the fatness). i want to be done feeling like this, its killing me…and i cant share it with anyone cause no one gets it, and i dont want to annoy anyone either because i dont want to lose them. thats why i just retreat into myself and avoid people. its summer ‘10 all over again. the depression, the constant ache, the avoiding.
i dont want to be in love with you anymore, please. i want to be able to get out of this, i cant cry anymore, i dont want to. im not the same, i want to be the old me again, the one who loved life and took on everything as it came. i hate that now i make every decision keeping you in mind, its not even on purpose it just happens and i dont want to anymore. im so effing tired.
i dont want to be in love with you anymore.
La Douleur Exquise (French): The heart-wrenching pain of wanting someone you can’t have.
When I came across this word I thought of “unrequited” love. It’s not quite the same, though. “Unrequited love” describes a relationship state, but not a state of mind. Unrequited love encompasses the lover who isn’t reciprocating, as well as the lover who desires. La douleur exquise gets at the emotional heartache, specifically, of being the one whose love is unreciprocated.
Koi No Yokan (Japanese): The sense upon first meeting a person that the two of you are going to fall into love.
This is different than “love at first sight,” since it implies that you might have a sense of imminent love, somewhere down the road, without yet feeling it. The term captures the intimation of inevitable love in the future, rather than the instant attraction implied by love at first sight.
Yuanfen (Chinese): A relationship by fate or destiny. This is a complex concept. It draws on principles of predetermination in Chinese culture, which dictate relationships, encounters and affinities, mostly among lovers and friends.From what I glean, in common usage yuanfen means the “binding force” that links two people together in any relationship.
But interestingly, “fate” isn’t the same thing as “destiny.” Even if lovers are fated to find each other they may not end up together. The proverb, “have fate without destiny,” describes couples who meet, but who don’t stay together, for whatever reason. It’s interesting, to distinguish in love between the fated and the destined. Romantic comedies, of course, confound the two.
Na jaagte hue khwaab dekha karo
Na chaaho ussay, jisse paa na sako
Pyaar kahan kisi ka pura hota hai,
Pyaar ka pehla akshar adhoora hota hai…
